Where have you been?

Hi guys! ^^

Yesterday, I've decided to text him...but when I asked advice from my friend yesterday, she told me it's better if I concentrate on my upcoming progress test first which will be tomorrow. So, after a second thought, I'd done what she'd advised me cause it's true..the progress is more important.

Then, yay! today is today..but I've decided to not text him at all..I'm just scared that I'm not prepared for everything. I'm afraid that he'll ignore my text like he always did before....before the sudden changes in him made him this way... =/

*sigh* I really really wish that he'll put all his ego away.. How I wish he'll text me first like he used to 3 years ago.. I still remember his first text hahaha! =')

But whatever it is...I just want him back, so that we can fix what we'd misunderstood last year, and we can be best friends again, where we can call each other names. That's all. I don't want him to be my lover or whatever is in his mind that day..I don't think is family wants it and I also don't think my family will agree with it..

And did you know why I'd told you that "let's be strangers again" ? Cause you kept avoiding me for the reasons I couldn't understand..but I've sorted them up few weeks ago. Anw, I said that because it seems you've fed up on me and need space, so yeah..I gave you what you've wanted.. and I wanna move on. That's so selfish of me...

" no, I'm too lazy to help you, bye, I'm out "

" I'm sorry, happy? "

"what do you want again?" haha! do you still remember those? You texted me those, which still hurt me until today.. I've tried to forgive you, but when I thought about it again and again, I seemed to hate you..but in the end I forgave you..and hate you and forgave you..it's been a cycle to me everyday. I just can't believe you'd said those shits I never wanna read..

So please, give me a sign and let us fix everything and be those two dumbass friends that share their secrets again.. Do you still remember a girl texted you, " I adore you..." and we laugh about it? hahaha! =') I miss that moment yaw!

If only you sincerely apologise that day.... If only you put your ego away... we would still be friends until today..haha! Anw, my apologises were really sincere for what I've said and done.

Please forgive me for what I've done in the past. I was naive and young.. and so were you.

Wtf? I'm saying this like you'll read them..pffftt.. Even if you do, would you talk to me again?