So, what's up? I'd just finished my exams just now >.> I was tiring..I mean everyday is tiring.....for these week... slept at around 12am and woke up at before 6am.... The next time I remember is being in the hall with studentsssssssss.....
And yeah, just now I hung out with 2 of my childhood friends. We talked bout what's happening, we told jokes, talking bout the pressures we're facing.. and I talking bout my -who I claimed- as my best friend, Venus, backstabbed me...
Damn, when I talked bout it..my voice sounded broken... I tried to hide the pain and the shame..but my voice....*sigh
A few more days will be her birthday, but i have something in my mind already..
My group will always celebrate our members birthday..and I planned to run away or hide or vanish or disappear that day.
I don't want to be there celebrating with them on her birthday, I don't know why...I just think I don't deserve to be there... Plus, I just can't be there....
Now I'm typing every single words about her, I feel lost and angry and upset and stupid....
So yeah, I have everything planned in mind. I'd already planned how to surprise her x)
It's just, I do not want to be there that day.. never!
And, maybe that's all I wanna share today.... I need my sleep right now..... 'sleep debt' =p
Take care out there!
Don't make the same mistake like me, being blinded so perfectly ^^
It hurts....it really does, no matter how hard you try to be cool...
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