Hi readerssss...I'm bored and not sure what to really update, so yeah I've decided to share with youu guys about the guy(s) that I recently have crush on..
Yeah I know..it's not guy, but guys. I ain't being a bitch, but it's okey for a girl to have more than one crush-es, isn't it? and, when I say I have crush (or crush-es?) it doesn't necessarily mean that I wanna have a relationship with them (I think)..
The first one is a guy =p HAHA! Imma never gonna say his name here..I don't know why I'd a crush on him. All I know, my numb feelings have changed since the day we talked (this year). He looked ego and quiet, but once he started talking..He sounded like a grandpa talking about his 100 years of living ( what I'm trying to say is he talks a lot). I also like how our eyes meet when he's around (....I mean just passing by). He's actually funny and he called me short --" and yeahhh, sadly he's taken..buuuu...but who cares? Imma never gonna try to snatch him away from the girl. I'm just having a crush on him and having a crush on someone is not being a bitch who don't know how to count! Oh ya, I dreamt about him twice ><"
Once is...aaaaaaaaaaaa!! So embarrassed to say it here. But it's just weird. Another one is just JUST NOW. It's weird too.
The second one is also a guy =p AHAHA! (just having a boring fun --") Ain't gonna say him name he too.. I don't really have crush on him, it's just I really, really loveeeee his smile. He has those cute 'fangs' when he smiles.. >~< and yeah, he's cute (and ego too). But I hateeeee his attitude. I mean really. He was my friend (a friend whom I just knew..I mean we knew each other a long time, but never talk until this year..wawa!) ex. He ditched her for a b****. And I think I know why. First, he's cute (but with quite bad attitude). secondly, he's flirty. He even ................with me. I hate it! but his smiles blew me awaaaaayy.. stupid. And oh, he's taken too. whatever, Imma never have the intention to be a 'snatcher' anyway! Never dreamt about his guy.
Talaaaaaaaaaaa..I think that's all! xD
Weird. I seemed like I like guys who's ego but actually not? hmmm..
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Quotes....quotes...
I don't know how some people could come up with so lovely quotes that could touch millions hearts. Those people are just talented and sincere, that's all I can think of..
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Yeah, I'd just googled it and for these awesomeee quotes! They're really inspiring, don't you think? =)
But here are some of my own quotes that I've been living with.
" No matter what happens today, tomorrow will be another day "
" Never create your happiness by hurting others "
" If you'd lost yourself, find who you were and start all over again "
Yeah, I'd just googled it and for these awesomeee quotes! They're really inspiring, don't you think? =)
But here are some of my own quotes that I've been living with.
" No matter what happens today, tomorrow will be another day "
" Never create your happiness by hurting others "
" If you'd lost yourself, find who you were and start all over again "
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Get to know my friends!! =D (CTians and my very bestfriend)
Yaw hi hi hiiiii my dear readers! xD
I know, I know that I haven't really update posts about myself (and my FAIL love life muahahaha!! *sob --") , but some random shieeeets... sooo, I'd decided to post bout my friends that I'm quite close!
Lets start with my bestieee!
Mie;
She'd been my best friend for 5 years alreadyy! Normally I lose a best friend after 2 years cause of disagreements which then arguments arise or maybe not being in the same class ( sooo...distance?). But Mie and I weren't in the same class (and not taking the same subjects AT ALL) for 4 years but we're still fine! =) she's a very hyper girl, but often (and easily) get lost in a conversation and people have to like repeat 2 times OR 3, if you really wanna her to understand what you're saying. She's a strong bietccchhh eventhough there's a lot or peer pressure and conflicts that she'd faced or is still facing. I'm sorry to say that she's not really a good listener (sometimes) and adviseeeeer...cause she's easily distracted..maybe when people are talking to her, she mind imagined about what she'll be doing when she's in that situation. She's also my hero!!! cause she saved me 5 years ago (that's not the reason why were besties) from being hit by a car..duhhh...It wasn't my fault! I was crossing a zebra line and out of no where a car appeared..maybe it's because of my blind spot that I didn't see it. okeyy...hmm..Mie is fun...and funny. she never fail to make me laugh when I'm in a bad mood.
And now it's CTians time! lets start with the oldest?
Lucia;
The girl who has a laughter like an engine and as loud as a Lucia's roar =p HAHAHA! she has a verrrrrrrrrrrrrryyy yellow mind which is not advance, but beyond advance.. --" I remembered she said once, when we (as in CTians...14 members? wawawa) were in pizza hut eating double tuesday..and IN FRONT OF EVERYONE, "it has to be in the dark, so you can feel" (at that time we were talking something yellow (hahaha --") yucccccccccckkk..I was sitting beside her and everyone sitting close to her moved their chairs away HAHAAH!! Hilarious! This girl, never try to challenge her something, cause if you do, nothing can stop her from what you'd dared her to do.
Marina:
The supeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer, extremelyyyyyyyy talented girl! She writes stories(or idk) and draws like a pro (that's what I think =3 cause she draws with her heart). She was my adviser when I have a problem last year. She talks non-stop and it sounded as if she's rapping when she talks..hahaha! jokinggg, but then no =p she's a cookie addict *I think haha!
Me;
I'm awesome! =3 that's all! AHAHAH!
Vivien;
The mama-ish girl, who's like a mummy to us cause she acts like a mum (mama, mummy, mum...what's next? --"). She's a very nice person, despite her some of her attitude which is saying others belonging lousy..--" duhhh! sometimes I wish to bite her head off when she said those words..but blah3, lets look at the bright side! she's a lecturer in term of health and she's really active. This girl, we can always trust her. =)
Yihan;
The-act-innocent-girl-but-not-so-innocent girl. why? I'll tell you later. We call her the 'censorship' girl cause everyone will get scold if we curse --" ( 1) she curse too, but seldom). when we talked (we're not those assholes that watch porn cause I CAN TELL YOU THAT NONE OF US WATCH THOSE SHITS..well except in movie. We're Bio student so yeah, we tend to talk stuff..we're open minded muahaha! *i think) about yellow stuff, she tend to scold us too, saying it's disgusting, but secretly (2)yeah we all can see) that she's giggling when we talked bout you know.. and oh! she's like the slowest eater IN THIS PLANET!!
Shereen:
A smart girl....when I say smart, she's really really smart. A straight A student alright!! Right now she's in loveeeeee =p she's a very sensitive person, who gets upset very easily..buuu! She loves to slap her friends arm for no apparent reason..I was a victim too.. Her swear word is 'c*b**' ALWAYS!!
Angie;
The 'princess' in CT..who is obsess with Barbie and disney stuff. she's a smart girl too, and is in love toooooooo.. I love to call her Mogie! AHAH! She's easy to be bullied (but not as easy as Sera) and then, she'll roll her eyes or fire back at you. She swears half way, for example a bad word that's suppose to be 'cela**', she'll just say cela.. She's a really lovely and polite (and lazy) girl AHAH!
Mek;
huhh..this girl...it I can strangle her, I would, long ago!! She's a really stubborn girl. She's actually a nice person, she listens to advice and do really try hard to change her bad attitude..like...nevermind. Well, thanks to us..derrrrr..(CTians). She told us that vegetables are her worst enemies. and oh, she broke 2-3 chairs (including metal ones..she's not fat, but idk..). A gamer to the core! Like my gawddd...she called her computer and her phone her husband, so that makes her 2 husbands! D= cheater!!!
Ling;
A sensitive person too, who cries at not-so-sad movie and screams at not-so-scary movie. She eats a lot! She's also my badminton partner for already 4 years! =) Her maths calculation is good, she's always my LIVING calculator muahaha! for eg, if I ask 689 x 142 =?? she'll give the ans in live 5 seconds!! nehh..just kidding =p of course she'll take a calculator out to calculate..derrrr... and oh, she hates chucky!
Amal;
a verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry hyper person who likes photography, actually she takes good pictures! =D (I can take good pictures ok?! I just don't have camera ok?! haha) if you think that she is who she is now, you're wrong! she's actually a very understanding person too, and sincere =) and she eats a lot and slaps people arms (like Shereen) a lot..and yeah, I'm the victim too sometimes --" she has like the best Biology jokes evaaa*actually her voice is in my head when I type that! --"
Sera;
she's quite a good friend of mine. We always share problems with each other. A smart girl too (Angie, Shereen and Sera are best friends..like glue!), she's the wild (and yellow) one among the 3. She's young but mature, and understanding. She never cooks or help in the kitchen --" Nowadays she tend to daydream..eheeeeeeeemm...when you ask her something, she'll reply you something else..pffffttt...
Adrian;
The KING OF BIOLOGY! He's the craziest guy I'd ever met in my whole life --" he's really crazy (just like his cousin..Amal). He's very open and random, but no one will feel uncomfortable around him. He laughed at almost everything and it's really fun to joke with him cause yeah, as I said, he laughed at almost everything. We called him 'tree' cause he's really skinny, but eats like an elephant..no, a WHALE!! He know that he's skinny, and he called everyone (even the normal looking ones) FAT AND HE CALLED HIMSELF A NORMAL looking person(the body I mean)..the heckk bro..
Fook;
we called him 'boss' or 'fooking'(for fun). He's the bro of Angie and is like a servant of the princess AHAH! In my opinion, he's more mature than his sister(Angie is the eldest and he's second) *opps =9 He likes to make COLD jokes..In Brunei, it's 24 hours summer, but when he joke around(with his cold jokes), even the summer freeze HAAH! He has a yellow mind too..or maybe alreay turned orange.. --"
Syak;
I lovey loveyyy to call her SHARK, it's all because of her name, Syak! muahaha! I love to say, 'shark swim shark!' and she'll reply something which I can't really remember. --" when she speaks, she has a polite tone even though she's annoyed hahaha! She's fun to be bullied too! =9 and oh, she is a bigggggggggggggg fan of Adam Lambert! x)
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO THAT ALL!! BYEEEE!!
And maybe next week I'll post about something that's almost the same?? like.....lalalala~ =p
I know, I know that I haven't really update posts about myself (and my FAIL love life muahahaha!! *sob --") , but some random shieeeets... sooo, I'd decided to post bout my friends that I'm quite close!
Lets start with my bestieee!
Mie;
She'd been my best friend for 5 years alreadyy! Normally I lose a best friend after 2 years cause of disagreements which then arguments arise or maybe not being in the same class ( sooo...distance?). But Mie and I weren't in the same class (and not taking the same subjects AT ALL) for 4 years but we're still fine! =) she's a very hyper girl, but often (and easily) get lost in a conversation and people have to like repeat 2 times OR 3, if you really wanna her to understand what you're saying. She's a strong bietccchhh eventhough there's a lot or peer pressure and conflicts that she'd faced or is still facing. I'm sorry to say that she's not really a good listener (sometimes) and adviseeeeer...cause she's easily distracted..maybe when people are talking to her, she mind imagined about what she'll be doing when she's in that situation. She's also my hero!!! cause she saved me 5 years ago (that's not the reason why were besties) from being hit by a car..duhhh...It wasn't my fault! I was crossing a zebra line and out of no where a car appeared..maybe it's because of my blind spot that I didn't see it. okeyy...hmm..Mie is fun...and funny. she never fail to make me laugh when I'm in a bad mood.
And now it's CTians time! lets start with the oldest?
Lucia;
The girl who has a laughter like an engine and as loud as a Lucia's roar =p HAHAHA! she has a verrrrrrrrrrrrrryyy yellow mind which is not advance, but beyond advance.. --" I remembered she said once, when we (as in CTians...14 members? wawawa) were in pizza hut eating double tuesday..and IN FRONT OF EVERYONE, "it has to be in the dark, so you can feel" (at that time we were talking something yellow (hahaha --") yucccccccccckkk..I was sitting beside her and everyone sitting close to her moved their chairs away HAHAAH!! Hilarious! This girl, never try to challenge her something, cause if you do, nothing can stop her from what you'd dared her to do.
Marina:
The supeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer, extremelyyyyyyyy talented girl! She writes stories(or idk) and draws like a pro (that's what I think =3 cause she draws with her heart). She was my adviser when I have a problem last year. She talks non-stop and it sounded as if she's rapping when she talks..hahaha! jokinggg, but then no =p she's a cookie addict *I think haha!
Me;
I'm awesome! =3 that's all! AHAHAH!
Vivien;
The mama-ish girl, who's like a mummy to us cause she acts like a mum (mama, mummy, mum...what's next? --"). She's a very nice person, despite her some of her attitude which is saying others belonging lousy..--" duhhh! sometimes I wish to bite her head off when she said those words..but blah3, lets look at the bright side! she's a lecturer in term of health and she's really active. This girl, we can always trust her. =)
Yihan;
The-act-innocent-girl-but-not-so-innocent girl. why? I'll tell you later. We call her the 'censorship' girl cause everyone will get scold if we curse --" ( 1) she curse too, but seldom). when we talked (we're not those assholes that watch porn cause I CAN TELL YOU THAT NONE OF US WATCH THOSE SHITS..well except in movie. We're Bio student so yeah, we tend to talk stuff..we're open minded muahaha! *i think) about yellow stuff, she tend to scold us too, saying it's disgusting, but secretly (2)yeah we all can see) that she's giggling when we talked bout you know.. and oh! she's like the slowest eater IN THIS PLANET!!
Shereen:
A smart girl....when I say smart, she's really really smart. A straight A student alright!! Right now she's in loveeeeee =p she's a very sensitive person, who gets upset very easily..buuu! She loves to slap her friends arm for no apparent reason..I was a victim too.. Her swear word is 'c*b**' ALWAYS!!
Angie;
The 'princess' in CT..who is obsess with Barbie and disney stuff. she's a smart girl too, and is in love toooooooo.. I love to call her Mogie! AHAH! She's easy to be bullied (but not as easy as Sera) and then, she'll roll her eyes or fire back at you. She swears half way, for example a bad word that's suppose to be 'cela**', she'll just say cela.. She's a really lovely and polite (and lazy) girl AHAH!
Mek;
huhh..this girl...it I can strangle her, I would, long ago!! She's a really stubborn girl. She's actually a nice person, she listens to advice and do really try hard to change her bad attitude..like...nevermind. Well, thanks to us..derrrrr..(CTians). She told us that vegetables are her worst enemies. and oh, she broke 2-3 chairs (including metal ones..she's not fat, but idk..). A gamer to the core! Like my gawddd...she called her computer and her phone her husband, so that makes her 2 husbands! D= cheater!!!
Ling;
A sensitive person too, who cries at not-so-sad movie and screams at not-so-scary movie. She eats a lot! She's also my badminton partner for already 4 years! =) Her maths calculation is good, she's always my LIVING calculator muahaha! for eg, if I ask 689 x 142 =?? she'll give the ans in live 5 seconds!! nehh..just kidding =p of course she'll take a calculator out to calculate..derrrr... and oh, she hates chucky!
Amal;
a verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry hyper person who likes photography, actually she takes good pictures! =D (I can take good pictures ok?! I just don't have camera ok?! haha) if you think that she is who she is now, you're wrong! she's actually a very understanding person too, and sincere =) and she eats a lot and slaps people arms (like Shereen) a lot..and yeah, I'm the victim too sometimes --" she has like the best Biology jokes evaaa*actually her voice is in my head when I type that! --"
Sera;
she's quite a good friend of mine. We always share problems with each other. A smart girl too (Angie, Shereen and Sera are best friends..like glue!), she's the wild (and yellow) one among the 3. She's young but mature, and understanding. She never cooks or help in the kitchen --" Nowadays she tend to daydream..eheeeeeeeemm...when you ask her something, she'll reply you something else..pffffttt...
Adrian;
The KING OF BIOLOGY! He's the craziest guy I'd ever met in my whole life --" he's really crazy (just like his cousin..Amal). He's very open and random, but no one will feel uncomfortable around him. He laughed at almost everything and it's really fun to joke with him cause yeah, as I said, he laughed at almost everything. We called him 'tree' cause he's really skinny, but eats like an elephant..no, a WHALE!! He know that he's skinny, and he called everyone (even the normal looking ones) FAT AND HE CALLED HIMSELF A NORMAL looking person(the body I mean)..the heckk bro..
Fook;
we called him 'boss' or 'fooking'(for fun). He's the bro of Angie and is like a servant of the princess AHAH! In my opinion, he's more mature than his sister(Angie is the eldest and he's second) *opps =9 He likes to make COLD jokes..In Brunei, it's 24 hours summer, but when he joke around(with his cold jokes), even the summer freeze HAAH! He has a yellow mind too..or maybe alreay turned orange.. --"
Syak;
I lovey loveyyy to call her SHARK, it's all because of her name, Syak! muahaha! I love to say, 'shark swim shark!' and she'll reply something which I can't really remember. --" when she speaks, she has a polite tone even though she's annoyed hahaha! She's fun to be bullied too! =9 and oh, she is a bigggggggggggggg fan of Adam Lambert! x)
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO THAT ALL!! BYEEEE!!
And maybe next week I'll post about something that's almost the same?? like.....lalalala~ =p
Friday, June 14, 2013
Happy holiday!!!
Happy holiday to all my readers! x) especially Bruneians! hoho!
Oh ya...today my friend is celebrating his birthday in Bandar (which is half an hour away from home) and I really have no idea what to wear? T.T
Should I wear dress or jeans? (if I wear dress, I can't go wild.. but I don't wanna wear the same clothes like my sis --" )
What heels am I gonna use? Grey? White? Red? the heckk...
And my hair! should I tie it up or just let it be like that...
&@*^@**!@(!! and his present is still undone --" AAAAAAA!! the weather is too hot to continue packing it T.T
That's all...huhu!! Happy holidays again btw! x)
Oh ya...today my friend is celebrating his birthday in Bandar (which is half an hour away from home) and I really have no idea what to wear? T.T
Should I wear dress or jeans? (if I wear dress, I can't go wild.. but I don't wanna wear the same clothes like my sis --" )
What heels am I gonna use? Grey? White? Red? the heckk...
And my hair! should I tie it up or just let it be like that...
&@*^@**!@(!! and his present is still undone --" AAAAAAA!! the weather is too hot to continue packing it T.T
That's all...huhu!! Happy holidays again btw! x)
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
That stupid maniac that scares me to death!!
Woootsuup people! Imma wanna post bout a maniac that was about 100m away from my house that day (which I couldn't really remember when...I think it happened on 7th may). andddd...yeah...100m away from my house, what I'm trying to say it...well...my house, I mean my granny's house is on top of the hill and in front of this house is a ermm... it's called 'OG Complex' anyway.. --"
It was earlyyyyyyyyyyyy in the morning and that morning I will be having my Pure Maths exams (i think) and I went to the window to breathe in freashhhhhhh air with morning dew blah3..then there's this maniac. He was sitting in front (100m) away from me and there's something really reallyyy...I really mean reallyyyyyy wrong with what he's doing. His posture and body language --"
Oh ya, the shops are all closed and he was sitting in front of one of the Indian shops and directly facing my granny's house... =s
So I just looked a him, kept looking at him and it was really reaaaaalllly wrong... the more I look at him, the wronger he is (I know that word doesn't really exist, I think HAHA). I can't really see what he was doing(my eyes have degrees..the heck I'm talking..), that is why I kept looking..I mean staring --" Cause you know what? His hands were in his pants and doing something damn inappropriate..he was like playing/scratching/whatever with his **** --" what a bitchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... so when I realised, I quickly looked away and when inside my house. I told my sister to peek at him, just in case I see it differently. So she did and told me that there's just a guy sitting there --" and I asked her to take a look again ( I didn't mean anything bad here! helloooo!!) andddd..so she did and laughed about it...so did I. I swear it was a nervous laugher cause we have to go to the bottom of the hill to wait for the bus to pick us up. T.T
I went to tell my mum about it cause I was scared... and yeah, my dad was still sleeping zzZzZZz..SHE SAW IT TOO! Then she told my granny's maid about it...then, here's the scary part..so told my mum that just before I was him sitting in front of the shop..I mean the 'complex', he called her..bout she stood what she was standing cause...I don't know..he looked scary perhaps? o.O
" heyy! heyyy come here! I wanna give you something! It's nice, do you want it? "
IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNN --"
^@*^!@^&NUSIW@^&*YWET^&B!!! the fuckkkk he's talking about?!
so when I got home from school (which I sometimes find school is a safer place =( ) I asked my dad about the maniac and my dad told me that he chased that shitty maniac away which he really did. The maniac ran damn fast, he's like a sprinter. and my dad said that one day he will have that maniac in his hands..awww~ AHAHAH!!
and sooooooooooooo... THE END.
But honestly, Brunei is becoming a scary place... I used to think Brunei, my home is the safest place I can be..but..... =(
It was earlyyyyyyyyyyyy in the morning and that morning I will be having my Pure Maths exams (i think) and I went to the window to breathe in freashhhhhhh air with morning dew blah3..then there's this maniac. He was sitting in front (100m) away from me and there's something really reallyyy...I really mean reallyyyyyy wrong with what he's doing. His posture and body language --"
Oh ya, the shops are all closed and he was sitting in front of one of the Indian shops and directly facing my granny's house... =s
So I just looked a him, kept looking at him and it was really reaaaaalllly wrong... the more I look at him, the wronger he is (I know that word doesn't really exist, I think HAHA). I can't really see what he was doing(my eyes have degrees..the heck I'm talking..), that is why I kept looking..I mean staring --" Cause you know what? His hands were in his pants and doing something damn inappropriate..he was like playing/scratching/whatever with his **** --" what a bitchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... so when I realised, I quickly looked away and when inside my house. I told my sister to peek at him, just in case I see it differently. So she did and told me that there's just a guy sitting there --" and I asked her to take a look again ( I didn't mean anything bad here! helloooo!!) andddd..so she did and laughed about it...so did I. I swear it was a nervous laugher cause we have to go to the bottom of the hill to wait for the bus to pick us up. T.T
I went to tell my mum about it cause I was scared... and yeah, my dad was still sleeping zzZzZZz..SHE SAW IT TOO! Then she told my granny's maid about it...then, here's the scary part..so told my mum that just before I was him sitting in front of the shop..I mean the 'complex', he called her..bout she stood what she was standing cause...I don't know..he looked scary perhaps? o.O
" heyy! heyyy come here! I wanna give you something! It's nice, do you want it? "
IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNN --"
^@*^!@^&NUSIW@^&*YWET^&B!!! the fuckkkk he's talking about?!
so when I got home from school (which I sometimes find school is a safer place =( ) I asked my dad about the maniac and my dad told me that he chased that shitty maniac away which he really did. The maniac ran damn fast, he's like a sprinter. and my dad said that one day he will have that maniac in his hands..awww~ AHAHAH!!
and sooooooooooooo... THE END.
But honestly, Brunei is becoming a scary place... I used to think Brunei, my home is the safest place I can be..but..... =(
Friday, May 10, 2013
Here's To Never Growing Up - Avril Lavigne
Soooooooooo yayyyyyyyyyy!!! Avril has released her first single music video yesterday (9/5/13) x) and omgggggggg!! I love loveee loveeeee the song and the music video!
Those fans kept complaining about the old and new Avril..and *BOOOOM* the old Avril is in the MV! haha! damnnnn x) she looked 17! So, Avril has only changed her style and taste, but Avril is always Avril, my idol =) FOREVAAA YOUNG
And ohhh!! There's Evan Taubenfeld! Her ex-guitarist, but they're always best friend even though..... =')
I've been finding a boy best friend who will stick and hang around, being crazy with me...and act like lovers....and don't give a damn to look stupid........and I haven't found one ='/ sad heh? haha!
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Those fans kept complaining about the old and new Avril..and *BOOOOM* the old Avril is in the MV! haha! damnnnn x) she looked 17! So, Avril has only changed her style and taste, but Avril is always Avril, my idol =) FOREVAAA YOUNG
And ohhh!! There's Evan Taubenfeld! Her ex-guitarist, but they're always best friend even though..... =')
I've been finding a boy best friend who will stick and hang around, being crazy with me...and act like lovers....and don't give a damn to look stupid........and I haven't found one ='/ sad heh? haha!
Avril Lavigne is indeed forever young =)
here's her music video: WATCH IT!!!!! x)
Friday, May 3, 2013
If......
You never wanted me in your life, do you? I've felt grateful when I was able to see your face, but I hate your sad eyes cause they told me that you need me to motivate and help you. When I tried to, you kept pushing me away. It hurts to fall onto the ground and kept raising up.. those bruises, I'd hid them so you'll see how strong I am without you all these fuckin years, and I don't need you at all!
The truth is, I miss you and I need you for your advice and courage to help to to get through these tough life..
Yes, I've pushed you away, cause..
And just now when I was in the car,I kept thinking and thinking..I did that everyday and it was really torturing. I was still think why you left me all of a sudden. I knew and always do that we've been friends and will always be, but the truth is I............ I'm sorry.
So, I realised those words 'Triangle :)' and 'You happy, I'm happy :)' wasn't even for me..haha! It was such a shame.. It was for the girl you'd dated, the one who entered your life before I did, isn't it? You missed her, don't you though you rejected her and then after a few months she's with someone else.
I still remember, you told me that luckily you didn't accept her..which mean you'd liked her.. and yeah.. that's where 'Triangle :)' and ' You happy, I'm happy :)' fitted in..
I'm really sorry if I thought you wanted me to be in your life when you never really did. Maybe I was only there to erase all your memories with her and perhaps, that's just my role in your life. I think I've done my job.
But I really need to know the reason(s) why? Why do you even say.....when you NEVER MEANT THEM AT ALL!!! I really wanna know why you'd have those guts to do what you've done? I want the answers from you..
Please, please...cause I really can't move on. I swear I really can't eventho I've tried. I really have tried ='/
I've tried to find some stupid reasons so that I can hate you too, but it always, ALWAYS end up as forgiveness.
've been crying tears that you will never see... I've got back up again to find the answers...
So, would you help me for one last time? Perhaps, you're...YOU'RE JUST CRUEL! ='/ Please stop torturing me and let me go so that I can do the same
The truth is, I miss you and I need you for your advice and courage to help to to get through these tough life..
Yes, I've pushed you away, cause..
And just now when I was in the car,I kept thinking and thinking..I did that everyday and it was really torturing. I was still think why you left me all of a sudden. I knew and always do that we've been friends and will always be, but the truth is I............ I'm sorry.
So, I realised those words 'Triangle :)' and 'You happy, I'm happy :)' wasn't even for me..haha! It was such a shame.. It was for the girl you'd dated, the one who entered your life before I did, isn't it? You missed her, don't you though you rejected her and then after a few months she's with someone else.
I still remember, you told me that luckily you didn't accept her..which mean you'd liked her.. and yeah.. that's where 'Triangle :)' and ' You happy, I'm happy :)' fitted in..
I'm really sorry if I thought you wanted me to be in your life when you never really did. Maybe I was only there to erase all your memories with her and perhaps, that's just my role in your life. I think I've done my job.
But I really need to know the reason(s) why? Why do you even say.....when you NEVER MEANT THEM AT ALL!!! I really wanna know why you'd have those guts to do what you've done? I want the answers from you..
Please, please...cause I really can't move on. I swear I really can't eventho I've tried. I really have tried ='/
I've tried to find some stupid reasons so that I can hate you too, but it always, ALWAYS end up as forgiveness.
've been crying tears that you will never see... I've got back up again to find the answers...
So, would you help me for one last time? Perhaps, you're...YOU'RE JUST CRUEL! ='/ Please stop torturing me and let me go so that I can do the same
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