Saved a kitty cat!!

(17/9/13) It was really crowded and we were standing under that damn hot sun which is burning us alive. We were waiting for His Majesty the sultan. While we were waiting (for him in his car to pass by), we talked nonsense. Then, one of my friends told me that there's a kitty in Blah's bag. So, I went there to see, but I 'retreated' cause I saw a teacher who I HATED!! So, when he goes away, that's when I 'conquered' nyahahaha!!

Blah told me that the kitty was really weak and it really was. It was kinda blinded by thick mucus on the eyes and it could hardly see. It just slept. And the most awesome thing is when they tried to feed it with water, using a plastic bag with water in it, made a little hole. Blaah2 tried really hard to let the kitty drink and at last it drinks the water!

That is what I call HUMANITY.

Though Blah didn't plan to keep the kitty, but he carried his bag the wholeeee day, and never let go. I told him that his bag's 'pouch' (there's a pouch in front of his bag) fits the kitty exactly. Then he agreed. I told him that the kitty was meant to fit into it.

I really think it's meant to be.

Blah told us that Blaaaah3 will take the kitty home and I guessed she did already.

I love those guys! =')

Why?

Cause I'm an animal type of person.

I'm not a vegetarian though, but maybe I will try to be one. And my uncle even tried to 'convert' me and my sis to be a vegetarian --"

Everytime we eat meat, he lecture us, saying how disgusting they are or how pitiful the animals are.

I'm a teenager and I need those meat to grow up..if I still could --"

They asked me to move on

Just now (16/9/13), after my school assembly, I went back to my classroom alone and just sit there alone. My friends were somewhere else, which I have no idea where they were. There were my other classmates whom I'm not close with. So yeah, my hand is on the table and my head is on top of my hand. My face was quite sour and confuse looking I guess?

I wasn't thinking anything, or I didn't even know what was I thinking.

I didn't know I actually looked like that, until my friend...a guy who I had a crush on ( and who had a crush on me too) came with his so-called girl friend, but they're not together.
I also didn't realise that I was looking into the empty spaces. Then he said, " why do you look so sad? Cheer up! ". And I was like " what? "

" Cheer up! Don't be upset. Just move on "
" What are you talking about? "
" Just move on, I've been there too. Some people will enter our life, but are never meant to stay. Focus on your studies and forget about him. "
" My god, What the heck you're talking? "
" You're really ego "
" pfffftt.. your girl friend is leaving already! " (she walked out of the door already)
" Nevermind, just let her go, she will come back, eventually "
" So, cheer up and move on ok? ok? ok? "
" Ok ok..so just go "

I don't really believe in his sincerity, cause he's the clown type..
But what he said quite touched my heart.

Yesterday, when I was about to sleep...I can't sleep cause I kept thinking about him. Forgive him or not. Hate him or not.
I did cry a little thinking about those cause I was confused..really confused.

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Some other days ago (few months ago), my another friend asked my to moved on too. I wasn't really in a good mood at that time. Maybe I was sleepy or something...or sad? I don't know. Suddenly he came to me (he sits behind me), and said, " C'mon, cheer up and move on!  If you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you ."
He's a really funny guy, and I never take his words seriously.
But I shall not deny, that he had supported me quite a lot.

In our maths class, he used to say funny cheesy stuff. He used to sing songs to me. He used to help me in maths. We were really closed. We treated each other like brother and sister, since he's really close with my cousins who are like brothers to me.
Then, he has a girl friend, and I kinda put a distance between this friendship cause who knows his girl friend is the jealous type..pffftt..

Thank you guys for supporting me. And I will really try my best to let that jerk go. I will try my best to cheer up too. Thank you =') I love y'all.

I'm back!! Pebo..pebo..pebooooo

YAWWWWWWWWW!! WHATSUPP?? omg! I haven't updated my blog for like 2-3 weeks? Imma really sorry ='( I've been really, reaaaaaaally busy! And yeah, results are out, but not satisfying!!

So yeah, I stopped by to say HI! =)

And booooooooooo...I've just finished my qualifying exams which was 3 weeks, and 27days COUNT DOWN TO MY ACTUAL A LEVEL! D=

Oh gawwwwwwwwwwwwwwdd!! This is soooo stressful! I was cheering like a retarded seal in the school canteen just now cause I've finished my qualifying exams, and then...jeng jeng jeng!
As I said, my results are bad and I'm gonna try really really hard to get at least an A* (maths), an A (GP or Physics or Biology) and 2 B's. I hate C's or D's! I've planned to continue my studies abroad tho =)

Good luck to mehhhh~ hahaha! chaw!

Take care guys!

Liars said, " Treat people the way you wanna be treated "

Hey, I'm back blogging again. Yes, I kept saying that I'm busy, but sometimes I feel like I need to write my blog cause I don't know. I have a journal, but I haven't touch it for quite a while. I don't wanna read what I've written there. I'm scared I'll be upset or mad, but I need to write or draw or cry? To let all these disappointments away.

Everything has changed. I felt betrayed, all the time. Now, I don't know whom to trust anymore. It hurts. History kept repeating.

Liars said, " Treat people the way you want to be treated "

Yes, I'm a rude person for some reasons from the past. I remembered that when I was like 5 or 6.. my mum bought these girly pink and plastic diamonds jewels that lil girls love. My sis and I, each of us had one. I remembered that we put them on happily. And I remembered how pretty she looked, she was really fair and cute and really lovely on them. While, I looked complete ugly on them, I was dark and ugly, just ugly. I think since that day I hate stuff like that.
And when I was 10 or 11, I saw a dress that I loved so much. It was really pretty and it was pink. I put on it, tried it before buying and it looked like shit on me. I hate it. I remembered how disappointed I was to be so ugly and dark. I can't be who I am.
When I was 12, I went to my tuition class. I wanted to fit in with my friends who were those girly ass with fancy shits. While, I always simple clothes. I remembered I used heels which belonged to my mum. It was pretty and it looked good on my feet. But it was quite old already. With my mum's permission, I used it to my tuition and I remembered we were climbing the stairs, me and 2 of my friends. Then, I heard whispers and giggles behind me cause I was in front of them. So, I knew they were laughing at those lovely heels.

Then, I met Avril Lavigne and she indirectly helped me to fit in. I mean, she helped me to be who I am. Rude and hateful and crazy, but I'm happy with it. I don't wear pink, I hate pink and shiny stuff. She inspired me, not my hating stuff. I hate those stuff (pink and shits) cause I really hated them since I was young already. She helped me to feel comfortable to wear simple clothes and all.

And because I can't really fit in with the girls group, I'd started to hang out with guys.

Now, I have my own group with guys and girls. I love them, but sometimes when I thought about it. I have a feeling that they hated me too because of my attitude. I felt as if I'm not important to them at all. In Jan, that was when my birthday is/was. I don't care if there's the stupid cake or not. All that matters for me is their greetings. I don't care if it's thought facebook or twitter or texts or face-to-face, I love greetings. Then, I have this friend who kept saying, " Go home and eat lot and lot of cakes! happy birthday! " I was thinking what did she mean. I reached home and there's no cake, so do you need to say that? It's annoying. If you guys didn't even care about my existence, don't even pretend like you guys do. WTF?

My have or had this so called best friend who back stabbed me. Well done. At last she let all those hateful stuff out of me mouth just because I texted her, " .l.(--)" ". If you're my so called best friend, you should understand me. so, since that day, I knew who she is. She hated me for who I am, but I don't care.

Then, I have this lame so called best friend who I don't know how we'd became close. She's a pain in the neck. She did something unforgivable, but it wasn't really her fault. She got pregnant cause she fucked with some random guy whom I don't know. She was 17 and she aborted it by eating pills. She asked me what to do and I suggested her to take some money from the guy. I asked her not to eat pills to harm herself, but guess what? She asked for my advice and forgiveness, but ended up eating pills already. I can't really sleep the first few nights because of that. I was disappointed cause how did I end up with these people? I chose my best friends very, very carefully cause  for me 'best friend' isn't just two words or someone who is close to you. Then, this year, few months ago, this girl, lied to her close friend (who is my friend) for money. She asked for a hundred dollar. I have no idea what to say and I don't know.
And last two years, this girl and my best friend, Mie and one of their friends wanna come to my house, but they were in the arcade (a small one) as I'm living in town, then this girl texted me saying that they will come to my house soon, but I've waited like I don't know. Then, the other, other, other day..I don't know how long the other day was, I've found an opportunity to ask me what happened that night. She told me that, 'this girl' said she wanna play some more and it's okey, just let me wait for them. I mean, cmon. So yeah, I think I've ended this friendship with 'this girl' on her birthday where i'd given her presents and greeted her, cause I told myself I don't need a friend like this.
When she wanna borrow my money, I lend her without hesitation, but this was all I got.

So, now this someone who has been my best friend for 5 years already.. i don't know why I felt as if I was betrayed by her. I tried to trust her cause I know she can be trusted. We were taking out driving lesson almost at the same time, but I'm few days ahead of her. Then, few days ago the one who's teaching us said that sometimes this someone will come for the driving lesson. Everytime, if we wanna drive, we will go together cause if you go there alone, it will really be awkward cause there will be a lot of unknown people. I did ask her that did she come for the driving lesson alone sometimes? and she said no cause yeah, because of the awkwardness. So yeah, but what? And yesterday, the 'tutor; told me that this someone had sit for her driving test, and if you passed the test, you will get you driving license. While, last night this someone said  that I'll get my license earlier than her cause she is busy with HariRaya stuff and she was jealous. So, I don't know now. I don't know whom to trust..Everytime I go for the lesson, I will text her or call her, but... I really hope the 'tutor' got confused and told me the wrong details cause I can't stand losing everyone I care.

I have this guy best friend who ignored me cause I cared about him too much. And I end our friendship on September, few days after his birthday. I fell for him and he knew it. That's why, and there's no point of being friends again when he kept ignored me. It hurt like hell. He, who I knew was different, who i thought was different from all my friends ended up throwing me away as well.

So yeah, I think I am the problem. I care to much and I've always waited like an idiot, while people took my kindness for granted. Wait, do I even have kindness in myself? cause people kept hating me. Sometimes I can't sleep, thinking what have I done and what can I do so people won't hate me.
Friends should know that I curse a lot and I'm rude. So, I don't know... I don't know.. I thought I've treated them alright, I always care for them. I'm always worry for them. When they need me, I'll try to help. They should accept me for who I am. They kept seeing my mistakes and craps, they never realised how often I'm always there for them. Damn. Damn.

I planned to study abroad so that I can start anew and forget the past, forget everything. I planned to forget who my friends are, but I can't I love them. I don't want them to say that I've changed without even knowing my story.

What's left in me worth to be loved?

" Man and woman should be treated equally "

Hey yaw! So yeah, I've decided to share what I've promised to you guys =) It's about the boy (my junior) in my school PTET who stood up for woman's right. His words are touching. Really. I don't mean his words are touching till my tears poured --" but believe it or not? There are students that cried listening to him.

Now I'm listening to Christina Grimmie new song (from her album With Love) - I Bet You Don't Curse God. You guys should listen to it. It's a BEAUTIFUL song =)

 So yeah..there was this function thingie and then orphan ( children without father or mother or both) were given money from the government. BUT only kid(s) without A FATHER were given the money. The ones WITHOUT mother were not given. Why? cause that is the rule.
Suddenly, a boy took the mic ( I don't know why and how at first cause I was busy talking to my friend about cakes and biscuit. hehe! We were hungry alright xp) and then he started talking. I didn't listen, instead I was annoyed. I was like 'WTH??' but then I don't know why, I started listening...He said something like...His english was kinda hard to understand..

" I talked to the principal, I asked him why do people without mum weren't given the money? He said 'because sometimes life isn't fair'. But this program, isn't it was suppose to support the orphans? The program is said to help the orphans. Orphans are the ones without father or mother or both, not the ones without father only. I gave the money to my friend who had lost his mother. I should have done it earlier. I have lost my father when I was a kid and I couldn't even remember his face. Man (father) and woman (mother) should be treated equally.. just like a tall tree and a short one, they should be treated the same.."

When he said the last sentence, I thought he was gonna say ' Tall tree and a short one, both could produce the same amount of fruits, so they should be treated equally.' I bet he meant to say that way tho.. And he apologised for his language used and the time he'd taken to give his speech.

I know there's more..but that's what I've heard and that's what I remember! URGG!! It's a lost! =(

I don't think he needs to apologise for anything. What he'd done is brave and right. May God bless him, this kind guy. He has a beautiful and sincere heart. YOU ROCK! lml

Trying to do something new!

Hey guys!! How are all of you? I hope you guys'd taken good care of yourselves? Haha!
If you are wondering about my health and all.. I'm fine and I'm getting 'healthier' which means I'm getting fatter. I did it on purpose cause I'm gonna stop growing (taller) next year. So yeah, I eat and eat and eat everything..cause who knows? =p And I purposely make myself look fatter cause I planned to do a healthy diet next year and I planned to gain four or six packs x) A lil is enough. Sooooo...I'll look different. I want the 'difference' to be obvious cause people always say I look the same all year round..I mean I never get fat or thin. 
Actually I did gain or lose some weights, but I always look the same. yayyy!! but buuuu for now! And if my friends or assholes call me fat..hahaha! I don't give a damn cause I have plan in mah mind! x)

Oh ya! From the title 'Trying to do something new' hmmm...I was actually thinking doing something different for my blog. I planned to sometimes maybe...post stuff you never knew about me. Why? cause I bet you know what 'just for fun' means and 'I love to do it in my way' means. If some haters find it annoying. who cares? I never asked you to read HAHA! Losers! =p

So yeah, my plan is like this.. I would sometimes (if I have to time):
1) post about myself (random shits)
2) post a short story (fiction) that I've written
3) post some song lyrics that I've written
4) post some poem that I've written
5) post fun stuff
6) post about my crushes or shitty love life haha!

So yeahh..that's all! =D and yay!!! I almost reach 1600 readers that viewed my blog or whatever it is called. I just don't know how to explain it..kakakaka!!

Byes peopleeee!! Love ya all!

Delayeddddd sorry x')

Hey guys! Lemme apologise for delaying the post I promised to update few days ago. lately, I've been really busy. Guess what? yesterday, I got my qualifying timetable and I just realised that the qualifying includes my A2 AND AS!!!! T.T I thought it only includes A2! GAAAAHHH!!! So, yeah I have to rush every shit out of shits! D=

So, maybe I'll post what had happened on 30/7/13 like what I'd promised! The 3 things that happened.

I guess, I got to go now. Sorry!
So, take care everyone! xD