You left me broken

Hi peopleee! I would like to get rid of this confusing, mixed up feelings by typing...and typing.....
My best friend, Mie met him.....Jerry at Huaho and did talked bout his dreams.. She did that for me --" cause she'd heard rumors that he has a girl already..

Mie asked him bout...I have no clue how did she ask him..but she'd texted me.
" I have a good news! He doesn't have a girlfriend! He said he wants to study, get a degree, then find the girl then get married "
Hahaha! He's still as mysterious and funny like before.. =)

I remembered how he left me and never tell me the reasons why... There he drifted away... and on 28th April will be the third year of us knowing each other. I still can feel a little of the pain when he left me bleeding. I still can see the scars on my arm that I've cut years before... haha! fuck....
but I know I'm slowly healing... I've grown stronger, yet colder..
I'm still trying to fix all those broken pieces together with my bleeding hands...

Whatever it is..ahha! I'm trying to let go...I'm tired of telling myself that everyday.. but I know that is the right thing.. God never gave me a tiny chance to meet him..or if it's so...was that even him?

I just hope that he'll be happy with whoever he will be in the future...
I hope that he's happy without me =)

It's hard to let go, cause he's my first love hahaha! we're never together, but has been dating 2 years ago..

I have to move on..
I wanna start falling in love again..
Goodbye, Love! I've never regretted knowing you.. =) I wanted to wait, but you have to know that I couldn't wait forever... two months left to 3 years....It's been a while...