Tired of.........keeping my head high

After feeling exhausted and sad, because I knew that I have to let him go.....NOTHING gets better! Today doesn't make anything better from yesterday! Everything and everyone is annoying to me!
Damn...I just need  to rest a while, but life never care how tired I was and I am..

I'm always trying to be a nice, strong and cool person to everyone.. there are times that I'm all low, weak and sad. No one cares about that...cause why would they?
Maybe you're thinking that I'm an annoying girl that complains everything..well, I've pushed myself off my limits and I really need to let everything go out of my chest..

Tired of helping people with their problems. Tired of giving people advice. Tired of these fake smiles I have. Tired of cheering people up. Tired of pretending that everything is ok. Tired of trying to make people smile or laugh. Tired of holding everything in. Tired of missing somebody. Tired of holding in my anger. Tired of staying strong. TIRED OF KEEPING MY HEAD HIGH.

How I really wish that someone will make me feel better without even knowing it. Without knowing how broken or tired I am.... Without knowing that I'm weak too...
I'm just a human...trying to fit in...
Like faking a smile will make everything better..

What I hate most is, people always push you off your limits.
What I hate most is, people never appreciate you for what you've done for them.

I believe some of you do understand what I'm feeling now....

They judge you for your mistakes and not your every single good deeds you've done in the past. People are blind!

They hate me cause I talk a lot when I'm hyper. I do TRY to talk a lot when I'm down, so that I sounded normal..but, fcuk it!
I'm a person that swears a lot...they got annoyed and some started to offend or 'scold' me..but do I give a damn? Well, no and never! If you can't handle me, so just get lost. I'm tired for not able to be who I am..

And yes, sometimes I did offend someone on purpose cause of what they'd done to me...if I'm not able to stay calm any further..oh yeah, my words are gonna hurt. But then, I regretted for what I've done.
But starting tomorrow, I'm not gonna apologise for what shieets I've said or done. Enough is enough.
I'm *sigh* I'm...really disappointed and TIRED.. I feel like giving up everything...

Hatred is all in my heart now...
Save me...