I've tried

hi!! =)
so yeahh, I was really buzy since Thursday.. my schedule was really full...let's see...
Thursday; played badminton with my friends at school till 4pm
Friday; Gonna go to the public library to help my friend who's gonna sit for his 'o' level. but cancelled
Saturday(which is today); assist a primary.6 boy in maths who is gonna sit for his PSR this year.
Sunday; gonna go to the Jerudong Beach to have the cleaning campaign.. *hope I won't be dark!!


and yeahh, all those 'tight' schedule just can't make me feel better. I've tried to talk to him, but he treated me coldly...dammit! I'm mad at,I don't know either myself or him.. I'm feeling lost now. I really am. I don't know what's right or wrong now.. but I'm too tired to play that game.. too tired to think what's gonna happen tomorrow..too tired to find the reasons...too tired to breathe...


Perhaps some of you understand what I'm feeling right now. My whole body feels heavy.....


My problems with my friends;
-some of them talk shits behind my back.. backstabbed me..created 'cool' twisted stories behind me..


My problmes with my besties;
- I have 4 besties, and 1 or 2 of them changed a lot. when she sees me, she'll pretend that she didn't, so I have to put a fake smile and cheerful voice saying 'hi!!'


My problems with him;
- urgg..i don't know what to say..i don't know what I've done to make him so upset...


Yes, I am different..maybe that's the reason why I a lot of people 'hated' and ignored me...So, I'm the bad person huh?? Maybe I deserved it....
So, I guess I am.................I don't give a damn anymore. All I want to do is, heal my feelings and moods....