Why are you telling me these?

Hi people!
Since last month, I have been always feeling low and down.
If you are wondering why, I have no idea...
Too much things have gone through my mind.

My two other friends and I confronted just now, as one of us are drifting. Not me.
She finally told us what happened in her home and broken down.

In the end, when we finally understood why she had been acting so differently, like being mean to us or everyone else.
I figured out that she was trying so hard to conserve her anger and sadness, and did not want us, innocence to be involved. Little did she know, the people around her are hurting. Especially one of the three of us and her very good friend.

I told her that if she remembers that I said, everyone loves you cause you are very kind. and I told her I'm glad I saw that 'you' when she talked her heart out to us. Then, she laughed. Lol.

"I found her!"

She knew that she needed to talk f2f with her good friend and I hope she will, so that everything will go back as it was, as it should be.

My friend's story reminded me a little bit of myself and my best friend.

Finally, we hugged and she apologised.

Some of you may think it is dramatic, but only a few who have gone through this situation will understand.

In the end, I treated her and another friend to a hostel restaurant. We talked a little bit.
After that she left. It was left with me and my another friend. We talked for a while and I told that friend of mine that when I wasn't myself, I prefer people leaving me alone. And few weeks ago I cried alone in an empty classroom (room3).

Then, my friend asked, "but why are you telling me this?"

I broke my heart in pieces, like I couldn't bear to show my vulnerable side anymore. I mean, I need someone to talk to. But... I mean, I wanted people to understand me better too, since we are in these breaking down topics.

It also reminded me of when my 5 years ago past where I told/warm a friend of mine that I'm having a bad day, cause I hope that he would understand if I happened to get mad or act differently. But he told be that he doesn't like it if I tell him, like there's no point.

So, yup. I think I have learnt more about myself now.
With whatever happened today, I'm glad I've learnt lesson too.

No one cares. =)