what I want.

So, like the title...
my sister asked me, what I wanted for my birthday.

I'm so old already gais.. T.T damnn...

Anyway, Idk what i freaking want. I mean, when she doesn't ask, there are a lot of 'oh, i want this', 'i want that'...but when it comes to the real deal. My mind went blank! Zzz...

I mean, it's not that I'm demanding, but everyone should have a special day...at least once a year.

I told her I wanna oreo cake. But actually I don't. Mai gadd...it's complicated.

But now I think I know what shits I want for my birthday. I want people to greet me, not only greet cause Facebook told you. Meanwhile, I think I should celebrate for not self-harming, for at least 2 years already bebeyhhh!! During my bday, I wanna eat all food I love without having to puke them all out. Yes, I'm sorry...but bulimia... that's where I am now. I wanna enjoy food from restaurants that I have never been. I wanna spend time, maybe at least 2 hours in the dinner table with my family, and not talking about school or future. I don't wanna hang out with friends, just family. I'm not really a family type of person, but when it come to my bday, my family is the one that is the most sincere one. During my bday, I wanna be appreciated. Fuck. No. Idk. Whatever. Thinking about this is killing me. Fuck.

I just wanna be myself. No bulimia shits. No whatever. U just wanna enjoy.

How about you gais? =)

I've shared my piece. Don't forget to share yours.

Chaw! =)