A short update

 Hi guys! How's everyone?
Anyway, I would like to wish you all Happy New Year............for tomorrow!! Enjoy 31/12 with all you families and friends!

I'm seriously sick right now.. it's been a week since I was in Malaysia having fun.... and then, I got this when I got back to Brunei -.-" duhhh... Fever, sore throat, coughing like crazy, mucus-ish nose HAHA! When I thought I'm fine and could start eating junk food, my whole body heat up again...
My mum and my sister are discriminating me... poor me~

I've eaten too much when I was having fun at Malaysia..here..lemme share with you guys...

FOOD.....

Ipoh's famous curry-in-bread

FOOOOD....

vege

FOOOOD~

yam with.....idk

FOOODD~

yummie fish....sweet and sour

FROGGG~

Bullfrog porridge..... Yes, it's nice.
yes, I love it! No, it's not disgusting!

 FOOD!

eel? o.O

 MY FAV!!

Bean curd...gawddd! I miss it

 I HATE THIS!!!

vege.....kangkong..is it? i hate vege

BEEER...

I sweetly rejected it when my uncle gave it to me..
but the next day..hmmm....I was a lil bit drunk.
Damn!

 NOODLESSS

kolo mee

 FOOD~

my Kuching laska.... I don't really like it
Taste weird -.-"

 STILL FOOOOD

noodles

FRUITSSS...

bought durians here

CAT~

I made a friend!!

 HUMAN!!!

A random person sleeping on the bus station's chair~
I feel bad doing this..but, yeah -.-"

FOODDD!!

Does this look big and delicious to you? I know right..
It's actually only 6 inches and normal -.-"

 CHEEZEE~

Don't judge food by it's picture...
the hell I'm talking....

 FOOOD!

yaaay!

 WOOOOT...

Lovely, are they?

 WEEEE!!

Pizza!!! I'd forgotten it's name -.-

 YUMMMMM....

same goes to here...

 PLAIN NOODLE..

This is what I'd eaten when I was sick.... -.-"
not that colourful....

 JUICEEE!! I mean...WATER!

my friend when I was sick..and is still sick...

So yeahh.. I guess that's all! And I really hope that next year, that is tomorrow ( you don't say~) will be a good start for every and each of us!
I'm gonna stay up late, like I always do every 1 January!
Chaw!!

Is the world gonna end in 21/12/2012?

Dear readers,

Is the world gonna end in 21/12/2012?

Woahhh..and yeah, that was and is a very big question for everyone. Old and young.

Stop thinking. Stop questioning. Stop wondering.

Stop looking at the clock.

We're just humans.

Me, I have no freaking idea what is going on and what will happen, cause i only believe in God. But lemme tell you what my opinions are.  If God's make it happen, it'll happen, we're just gonna prepare for it.

Will it really happen?

What time will it happen?

Where will it happen first?

How is it gonna happen?

My answer is: only God knows

Some people just joke about it, cause they're afraid if it's true.

Some people believe it, cause they know it's true.

Some people, like me, kinda believe it and also not, cause we're just preparing.

But whatever it is, I think it's better to spend your time and also give your best to your love ones. Don't take things for granted. It won't give you any loss, only memorable memories on 21/12/2012. Everyone will remember what they'd done on that day.

These are just my opinions though. I have no freaking right to convince any of you if it's true or not.

If this world is really not gonna end, who are we to laugh at the ones that believed it? but perhaps when we woke up another day, you're not you anymore... I'm just saying...

So yeah, that's all! ^^ Lots of love~

VanL's going random

Hi readers! I'm bored and yeah, I just wanna share weird facts about me. I hope you guys will understand me better? I guess?

Weird fact or just facts 'bout me:
1) I love to wear red.
2) I Have 2 toothbrushes and also 2 blankets
3) I'm short, but I like tall guys..wooot! -.-"
4) I hate my smile, especially my dimples
5) People see me as an ego, arrogant and cool person
6) Behind the scene, I'm all crazy
7) I never dye my hair
8) I love beer
9) I'm not an out-going person
10) I never sleepover in my friends' house
11) I hate my height
12) I laugh more than I talk
13) When I started to laugh, it's almost impossible for me to stop
14) I love my dog, SyaSya
15) I can be friends with almost everyone.. I don't choose friends
16) I used to play a lil bit of guitar and keyboard... now I'm just too lazy
17) I sing....especially after shower, in my room
18) I know I'm right/wrong, when I think I'm right/wrong
19) I'm addicted to junk food
20) My dream is to have a band and be the lead singer
21) I sleep a lot..lame....
22) I cut my own hair..when I'm stress
23) I always paint my nails at least 3 different colours
24) I don't really read Fiction books.....
25) My pillows are always all over the floor...........when I woke up....

So yeah, I guess that's all.......and now I'm watching The Amazing Race... duhh... I have an appointment tomorrow, Goodnight!

I'm letting you free..so fly...

Damn... when I thought I've moved on and could start anew..
Everyday I wake up, he's still on my mind... still thinking what I'd done wrong till he kept avoiding me...till he hated me like hell...
Removed me from his life and history... I've been waiting..and waiting for him for two and a half years.. I know I needed to let go, cause it's me, and I'll be the one that suffered..

My friends told me, advised me to let go and move on...but they don't understand that it's not the same.
Yeah, I'd secretly fallen to a lot of guys...shed my tears for them, cause all those guys that I'd fallen for are not meant to be....unknowingly, walked out of my life. But then, I'd forgotten them..

But him, I don't know why....I was an insecure person. And then I met him, and finally opened up to him. Just for him. He then, leave without a word. I don't know what I'd done wrong... Yes, it's been 2 and a half fuckin' years...I'm still wondering. I've shed my tears for him. I've bleed... my heart's bleeding. If only any of you could really understand...

My real good friends are really trying to help me.. but they'd helped me half way, and then, left too...cause they couldn't stand me.. haha! sorry, I never mean it...

Him, he drew me a picture of himself.. I remember, he asked me to choose between the necklace that he's wearing and a picture that he'll draw.. and so I've chosen the picture...which I still keep till today..
I remember, we had a lot in common and then became best friends, I'd claimed him first. Then, he told me that actually he wanted to say the same thing, but face to face, cause that will be more meaningful. I remember, how he'll always there when I needed him. I remember, when he asked me to hang out with him and our friends, but I refused. I still remember where we seated in that restaurant, he played with my phone and drink. I remember, we used to chat till one or two in the morning. I remember, how his jokes always made me laugh to myself whenever I'm lonely. I remember, how we childishly invited each other into our own dreams. I remember, how we called each other offensive and also sweet names.  I remember, he didn't reply my text cause he fell asleep on the floor, waiting for me to reply. I remember, we said 'I love you' before we sleep, but the difference is, my words were real... so;
Until one day, he met new friends...
I understand that we're just best friends, but I'd fallen for him... I'd fallen for my best friend..

" Heyy..since when did I have you in my contact? haha!" was his very first words to me...
" What the hell do you want again? " was his very last words to me...

If only he knew what and how I'm feeling..... he'll understand..if he lets his egoness leave his side for a second..

I know that I have to let go.... How I wish I'd stayed cold so that it won't hurt this much. So that I do not have to wait for him to realise.. Now I'm not ready to open up again. Or maybe I won't open up anymore. I'm scared, the same mistakes will come back. Songs that I'd listened, kept reminding of him..him...and just him....

Crown The Empire - lead me out of the dark
Evan Taubenfeld - Best years of our life

I wanna let go...I wanna let him free...free from my mind, free from my life... But when I do, I'm afraid that he'll come back. So please, please don't come back...I'm weak. Just keep walking your endless road. But always know, that I'd loved and cared about you...I miss you
I'd hated you too, but I forgave you...cause,

I wanna start anew....
I wanna to have a guy best friend that won't leave...that will be here for me, like I will for him... that understands why am I talking randomly and all....that shows me that they'll be here..
And I guess, it's just a matter of time....

I'll try to start anew...

I don't get it

I don't get it...

I don't get,
How someone can erase you from their memory.
How someone can just delete your existence.
How someone can just walk pass by you and pretend nothing happened between you two.
How someone can completely forget about all of the memories you've made together.
How someone can get over you so quickly.
How someone can just lie to your face.
How someone can lose feelings unexpectedly.
How someone can change your entire mood in an instant.
How someone can walk away like your meant nothing.

I just don't get it...
It doesn't make sense to me...

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I found this on Facebook. I'm able to relate this to my personal life. And I find this quote pretty, so I'd decided to share.. ^^

play: The Second Chance

Hi everyone! x) how's life? I'm good today, after a good laugh with my friend, Adrian =)
It's kinda late to write bout this, cause it happened on 24th Nov...that is, yeahh..quite a long time ago, I guess?

So yeah, my good friend, Aevie, invited me to a play by her church groups, and she's in the play ;D she is the dancer in that play.. it's called 'The Second Chance'

It's a freakinggggggggg nice, niceeee, niceeee and hilarious play. Damn, I laughed like crazy -.-"
Oh, so here how it goes..

As it stated there...first....that's not important... -.-"
So yeah, when me, my 2 other friends and my sis arrived there....... that makes 4 of us. It was sooooooo awkward! We have no idea what to do and where to go...until Aevie appear HAHA! that's sooo embarrassing and there were HUMANS EVERYWHERE...like derrrr~ and yadayadaaa..we went to the counter to give our tickets and were given numbers...our numbers were 19, 20, 21 ans 23...Idk why they'd skipped 22...but that's not important. So, Aevie brought us to the canteen. We waited there for a few minutes and talked rubbish..hoho! And so our numbers we being called. We went upstairs and sat at the best seats...I suppose -.-"
And yeah, as it started...they make clear the rules first...like...phones were to be switched off and blah3... the synopsis were then read...and then the show begins~

Ohhh..before that, my sis told me that a guy who's sitting across (cause the seats were arranged in.....  left, middle and right side...all facing towards the stage...which is at the middle...........and I have no idea what am I talking 'bout and oh, we sat at the side, 2nd row) is good looking and she kinda has a crush on that guy, cause he's like mixed blood. And yeahh..he's good looking x) and I kinda had a just-crush on the same guy o.O so, I was like, nevermind..just forget it..

Lemme just tell you guys my point of view~ I'm just gonna tell it briefly....hoho! laziness~ =p

Before the play started, a girl sang a song...and her voice was nice!! I mean perfect! gawddd! her voice's sooo powerful too...the mic was like 16inches away from her mouth..but it's still damn loud. That's teh time, when I realised that Brunei has talented singer(s)....

Scene 1:
This man, named mr.Tan is damn selfish and loves to cheat on poorer people. He has a shop which sold almost everything.. " Nice to look, nice to try. If you touch, you must buy ", is his shop's policy.. -.-"
There's this woman that wanted a lower price for the clock that she's holding during the promotion, cause it's still too expensive and can't really afford it. Mr.Tan said the clock was from somewhere...somewhere foreign country (which I can't remember...duhhh). But he refused to give her a lower price, but she had to buy...cause of this shop policy.
Then, there's a little girl came, asking for donation..but Mr.tan said that he has no time for all those things. The little girl then kept asking him for it and gave him an advice....that God would be glad and all (I can't remember what she said). Then, at last he surrendered and gave her a quite amount. But not just that, he asked for change -.-"
His best friend, Alex then came to visit him and told him not to be so stingy. Alex also asked him to believe in  Jesus and advise mr.tan to change. but in mr.tan's eyes, money is more important...


Scene 2:
So, here we go...we'll be meeting mr.tan's mother, wife and his 2 children. His mother was the best comedian that night! HAHA! she's old and cute! while his wife....loves to shoooooooooooop and shoppppp and shoppppp -.-" " shop, shop, shop, shop till I drop"...
His 2 children, Cayden and Sophie are just great... they're the ones that went to church and loves to lecture their dad, to open up his mind, to accept Jesus. But, as always......he's too busy~ counting money...
Mr.tan also wanted Sophie to marry to a rich business man's son..so that he could be rich-ER...
Then, the daughter started to sing, and there's when Aevie appeared..dancing haha! she looked like a lil girl..hoho!


Scene 3:
This is when Nick...an ordinary man, came to mr.tan's shop to buy a present for his wife. Finally, he chose a washing machine. "This is not an ordinary washing machine.....(blah3)...it is called 'KABOOM!'"
So, when Nick finally arrived home and he happily asked his wife to unwrap the Christmas gift. He also bought presents for his kids with the money he has left. All of them were so excited to test the greatness of the washing machine. 
They sang the song 'If I Were A Rich Man' and dance to the song...my gawdddd.....It was soooo hilarious!
The washing machine then...KABOOM! exploded... Nick was freakin' mad and.......


Scene 4:
Nick arrived to mr.tan's house and knocked of the door vigorously.
Cayden were ordered to open the door...and so he went to the door and saw an angry person. He quickly told his dad to open the door him self..and so he did. Nick just rushed in and scold and maybe threaten mr.tan. Suddenly, mr.tan just fell on the ground.
Ambulance..............mimo,mimo,mimo..~~


Scene 5:
Depression....tears....panic.....begging the doctors....prayers...
Mr.Tan had a heart attack...

Scene 6:
So, mr.tan's soul were being taken by 2 angels and he was brought to face Jesus. Mr.tan's name wasn't in the Lamb's Book Of Life, so he has to go to The Lake Of fire. Gawdd....even though this is just a play, it was really scary -.-" the screams.................... Mr.tan then begged for forgiveness and for a second chance, and also promised to accept Jesus. Jesus Christ couldn't really forgive mr.tan at first, until he heard Cayden and Sophie's cries, begging Jesus to forgive their father....

This is when the guy which I thought my sis talked bout appeared...he's one of the dancers..I thought he's just the audience. So I asked my sis "is he the one you're talkin' bout?" " I dont know, I don't think so..."


Scene 7:
Mr.tan who died for 5 minutes, came back to life. And the doctors check again, for confirmation.. at last, they agreed that his heart's as healthy as a new heart... mr.tan then, told everyone that Jesus is real and also shared what he'd experienced while he was away...


After that, a guy showed us 3 pictures...they are the ones that died and came back to life..cause they were give a second chance....

Soooo...that's all... I'm sorry if my english is all upside down and bad....today, I'm just too tired and lazy. I planned to finish this post last Thursday...not it's Sunday already... -.-" delayedddddddd....

Then, all the actors, actress and dancers reappeared and came forward to thank us and appreciate us (all the audience) for coming..we shook hands. I was sooo blank. Then, I realised who's my sis was talkin' bout.. all this time, she talked bout a damn good looking guy..who is also mixed blood. White-ish and bruneian-ish. So, phewww...I'll keep this crush feelings I have....temporarily, perhaps?

Oh, I only shook Aevie and her sis's hand...the strangers....no no no! haha! oh before that, the guy that I had a crush on, was in front of me...he thanked the kids in front for coming to the play. Then, you know whaaaaat? We met eyes to eyes.....gahhhhhhhhhhh!!! I feeling like flying.... -.-" fail... I couldn't forget that moment.. but I know I'll have to let go soon....when it's gone, it's gone ^^ but I really hope to meet him...?

At last, we have refreshments, and he was standing beside the door. so we yumyumyummm...it was sooo late and I cant believe i ate a lot that day -.-" and it was time to go home...it's already 11pm. The last time I saw him is, me and my friends when out of the canteen, and he just came in.... buuuhuhu!
But yeah, I don't have any feeling for him anymore -.-" cause it's just simply a crush yaww~ haha

I know I talked a lot, and this time, this post is boring....cause I got bored typing these too... I hope you all read until the end? T.T