Hiii! Suup?

Hiiii everyone? what's up? I'm really sorry that i don't have the time to update my blog. And I really hope some of you guys could actually leave some comments to motivate me to update my blog. Yes, maybe it's boring =/ but this is the only way I can express myself instead of updating statuses in facebook, which I think is quite childish or something....


I'm gonna have my progress tests soon...real soon. And I'm in college now. I never really have the time to do whatever I want. Plus, the connection here sucks...especially Sunday. hmmm.....Wish me luck! =D


So, we'll meet again(?) soon(?) I definitely will update my blog whenever I'm free! So, byes and take care everyone!!

Arms (II): the waiting

" Mum! I'm home!", Freya said with a force smile...
"omg! Are you alright?! Where that hell have you been?!"
"Mum.....I will officially break up with James tomorrow...I will meet him"
"No!  No...! It's been 2 months...you've waited for him, wanting to see him! No! I don't want to see you lifeless for another 2 months! Please!"
"I'ts okey mum...I will be fine. Really...you have to trust me..."


Mrs. Truburn just walked away without saying a word....
"If that will make you happy, if that can change you to who you were 2 years ago...fine" she said, finally..
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Why is the wind so cold? Why is the sky so dark like 2 days ago, the day she met the stranger? Why is the trees at the park looked sad? 
Clutching her hands together, feeling nervous. What if it turned out the damn way she never wanted..that is...she can't say the word 'goodbye'...."he'll be coming soon......in a few minutes...he's never late.."


" Heyy, James..."she shouted.
" Ermm...heyy...!" he shouted back from a distance, walking cooly like he always did......'like he always did...'
" ha..ha..it's been a long time...err..how are you?"
'He looked thinner than he was 2 months back then', she thought..
" Just tell me what you want?"
Sadness suddenly filled her... 'he'd changed...a lot'
"I err....I just wanna know if you're err...okey.. and i guess you are now"
....James just remained silent....
"and I.....I wanna break up with you. I mean officially break up with you. I can't stand any longer, waiting for you...thinking of you...I just can't!!" And tears began to flow from he 'beautiful eyes'...that's what he used to call..
"ohh..I see. I'm okey with that. So that's all?"
"that's it? you're....not even regret for what you've done to me?"
"no...not at all. I'm happy with my life now. I'm happy with her"
"I'm glad to know that", Freya said with a smile, but tears kept flowing down.
"If that's all...I have to leave now. She's waiting for me...I'm sorry i can't spent a longer time with you.."
"ohh..so, this is the end. Goodbye.."


Before James could turn away, Freya turned away first.. " I'm not gonna see him leave like I did...I gonna walk my own way", she thought.


Suddenly, someone grabbed her by her arms..
" Please....don't leave me.....I'm not fine! I'm sorry! I just couldn't face you anymore. I've been waiting for your call or whatever. Yes, I'm waiting. I'm happy that I have the chance to see you today! I'm sorry that I've hurt you. I never mean to. I do this because I love you.."


Frozen, she turned around to face James who is crying like he did last year when she got into a car accident. His tears, his voice, his eyes were unforgettable.. they're just so perfect. Perhaps those were the reasons she fell for him....


"Please don't do this. Everyday I've cried for you. and I'm trying to move on starting today. I'm trying to be strong...Please let me go like I am right now. I don't trust you anymore. I know what you just said are lies, aren't they?? Please tell me they are...", trying to stay tough, but she lost.."Let me go....."


After her last words, he let go of her hands and Freya ran away, leaving him seeing her running away....she'll be gone.....and he'll be gone too...........


"I'm sorry....please wait for me....", James whispered.

Arms(I) : the picture

Everyday felt dark and doom. The skies were crying. The wind blew softly, perfectly and silently...
The picture that was taken 2 years ago was held warm in her hands. She sat outside on the bottom of the dirty stairs of an old building, with holes at the roof, but enough to keep her sheltered. Feeling lost, cause was betrayed by her boyfriend, James.. She knew that she can't take it anymore, but she loved him..even though what he'd done to her..


Suddenly, a stranger with a dark jacket passed by her, with is face totally covered by his black cap's shadow. His right leg kicked her hands and the picture flew away...onto the wet, thick pool of water.. Then, she chased the picture like something that is really valuable..which it was...once....


" I'm sorry..I never meant to..."
"ohh..It's okey..really..." trying to dry off the water with her dark blue t-shirt with the word 'smile'
"heyy, c'mon, smile...it's even written in your shirt.."


Without saying a word, she just walked away...


"heyy.. what's your name?" she asked..
" I will tell you when you're able to smile...and if we meet again..."
"how am I gonna recognise you? you're covered in black.."
" No worries..you will...byes Freya..."


She was indeed shocked to hear what he called her. Yes, that's her name. Freya. The stranger's now totally gone into the darkness. Gone...gone....


"I have to move on..it's been 2 months. James never tried to make things better. He never tried to talk about it. Never tried to apologise, saying that he'd regret everything he'd done...". Warm tears started to flow down her soft wet cheek. "I have to move on..."
She then torn the picture into pieces and threw them in the air. Let the cold wind blew them away..far, far away from her soul.....